One of the most important lessons to learn: Take What You Can Get!

My boyfriend is stationed in Norfolk, Virginia. I am currently visiting him right now and will be here until January 5th. This will be our first Christmas away from our hometown, and it seems a bit strange.
He was scheduled to work Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, so he tried putting in leave for those days so he could spend both days with me in our hotel room. Well, it was denied. I will be spending 6am - 9pm alone in our  room both days. Of course, I am highly disappointed, but I'm still here. If I would not have been able to take the trip, we would be spending Christmas apart, and he would be completely alone without me or his family to spend the holiday with.

This is just another example of how some things don't happen the way we would like them to. I'm sure that all of the military spouses/girlfriends reading this have experienced something similar, so you can understand exactly how I'm feeling.

Instead of dwelling on the negative, I will be occupying my time with planning something very special for him when he comes back from work. I will be going out to get all of his favorite Christmas movies later on today, and calling his mom to walk her through the Skype downloading process so he can actually see his mom on Christmas. We have also been on a microwave diet since I got here because that's the only appliance our hotel room has, so I'm going to get the highest quality food that I can cook in a damn microwave. Another example of how we have to Take What We Can Get!

Christmas is a time to appreciate what you have. I am so thankful that I will be able to spend a couple hours of that day with my boyfriend because some ladies might only be getting a phone call, or maybe nothing at all. The greatest gift I can think of is being able to cuddle with him in front of the TV watching our favorite Christmas movies with microwaved food, marveling at our beautiful little Christmas tree, and family Skype dates.

Have a Merry Christmas everyone, and appreciate everything that you have during this holiday season. 

Don't Forget

This is a song that I wrote for Zach as a part of his Christmas gift. I will be playing guitar and recording it for youtube, so expect to see that post later. I hope you like it!

You got a hold on me the first time I saw you smile.

Your voice is as soothing as a canary.

We had a normal thing going for quite a while,

Until you threw my heart at the military.

I could be nothing but selfish.

Why are you leaving me behind?

Why am I being punished?

The anger made me cold and unkind.

I know my first reaction wasn’t great.

Being without you wouldn’t be right.

I have to realize this is our fate.

I never want to lose this fight.

Getting used to the fact but,

I’m having battles with myself internally.

We’ll be okay, I know in my gut.

I know I want you for eternity.

Choosing not to have you means

My life would never be the same.

The distance makes goodbyes hard,

But hellos are worth the pain.

Always return to shore from sea,

And come home safe to me.

Although there is no guarantee

That home is where you’re meant to be.

Don’t forget I will be here waiting.

I didn’t know what to expect.

Our love would be imaginary.

I thought our relationship would be wrecked

Everything is out of the ordinary.

Through my laughter and my tears

All of my friends have been there.

Although they do not understand my fears

They can comfort my despair.

I cherished your last days at home.

Creating moments we can always remember.

Focusing on the days that are to come.

We have to work if this is forever.

The night you left I did nothing but cry.

Cuddling your pillow too.

Wishing the sad feelings would die.

But they gave me a chance to miss you.

Choosing not to have you means

My life would never be the same.

The distance makes goodbyes hard,

But hellos are worth the pain.

Always return to shore from sea,

And come home safe to me.

Although there is no guarantee

That home is where you’re meant to be.

Don’t forget I will be here waiting.

Several months go by without my hand being held.

My lips not kissed and

My sides and waist not being felt

But I can still bear to stand.

The anticipation has been killing me.

It’s been eight months since our last meeting.

You’re coming off the ship I see

Running towards me for our first greeting.

Seeing you makes my tears burst.

Your shoulder is where I lay my head.

Every kiss as dreamy as the first

It’s all worth it, like you said.

Holding onto every moment like it’s our last.

It will seem a lifetime before we get a new one.

Reliving memories from our past.

All the joyous times weigh a ton.

Choosing not to have you means

My life would never be the same.

The distance makes goodbyes hard,

But hellos are worth the pain.

Always return to shore from sea,

And come home safe to me.

Although there is no guarantee

That home is where you’re meant to be.

Don’t forget I will be here waiting.

We are surviving on letters and phone calls

While thousands of miles have us separated.

Why did I fall

For something that I hated?

Even though the crying seems to last for hours

I go to bed with a smile on my face.

Recalling all of our written memoirs

Not leaving out a single trace.

The ring you gave me signifies your promise.

I swear I will always honor that for us.

The future we will have together will be bliss.

The only thing we will have to do is adjust.

We will look back at this and laugh.

We’ll make it through, and that’s a fact.

Because my love for you will never fade,

And it’s always going to stay that way.

The Navy has my heart,

And there is nothing I can do,

But cope with the part

And always stay true to you.

Choosing not to have you means

My life would never be the same.

The distance makes goodbyes hard,

But hellos are worth the pain.

Always return to shore from sea,

And come home safe to me.

Although there is no guarantee

That home is where you’re meant to be.

Don’t forget I will be here waiting

Don’t forget I will be here waiting.