I have only 3 short days living in the state I have always known as home. My mother gave birth to me in Michigan. Training wheels were stripped off of my bike in Michigan. I have lost family in this state, and I have gained family here. There have been many good and bad times here, but the moment that has had the biggest impact on my life was when I met the love of my life, and my only love, here in good ol' Michigan. This state, and the people in it have made me into who I am today. Saying goodbye in 72 hours seems unreal. I have spent nearly two decades smelling the cool, crisp air of fall. I have seen snow fall like you wouldn't believe. I have sweat and complained in 80 degree weather in the summer. I have put up with miles and miles of the unavoidable road construction. Above all else, I have met people who have all had an impact in my life. The friends I have met here will always be in my heart. My very best friend is going on her own journey in a few months as well. The people I will miss the most are the ones who have been in my life since day one; my family. I have already said goodbye to my mother. We both cried on each other's shoulders for what seemed like an hour. We are best friends. She is the strongest woman I have ever met, and I have been afraid that she might fall weak once I go. She assures me she won't, but you can't predict things like that. My dad has concealed his empty-nest feelings as best as he can. I anticipate the big show when I give him the last hug before I sit in the car that will take me 13 hours away. Leaving all of this behind is just as exciting as it is saddening. Bittersweet is the perfect word to describe the move I am making to Virginia.
My Future in Virginia
Even though I'm leaving the only place I have known, I look forward to starting a new beginning in a new world. There is always a time in someone's life when they realize it's time to fly. I just cannot believe it's already that time for me. On Friday I take the biggest step forward that I have ever had to make. I will be living in an apartment in a strange place by myself until Zach comes home from his second deployment (which won't be too long, hooray!). There are many things I look forward to. Moving in with him will prove our compatibility. Of course I am confident that we are perfect for each other right now, but seeing him every day will allow me to learn everything about him. I may think I know now, but I do not. He will have many quirks about him that may get under my skin, but I'm not flawless either. We will argue over the pettiest things, but I will make sure to always tell him I love him before falling asleep. If we regrettably end up discovering we are better off as friends, I will never regret the time we had spent together. I am willing to consider every outcome of this move. On a positive note, what I look forward to most is becoming my own person. I will finally have complete freedom. This will give me more self-discipline than I have ever known. Studying, working, cleaning, and so many other things will be on my agenda, and it's up to me to make sure everything is accomplished. There will be many struggles, but I look forward to overcoming them with Zach.
No matter how strange it may seem to no longer live in a familiar place, I am overjoyed to begin my "adult" life with my love, my best friend.
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